There are a lot of times when I feel lonely
And I call all of my friends
And all of them have perfectly legitimate reasons as to why
They're not answering their phones.

Only I jump to the worst conclusions
Assume everybody hates me
Revert back to ugly fat girl with crooked teeth
Curl up into a ball
And give up on everything.

This is my reminder to myself that I, in fact, am surrounded by love.

THURSDAY:
An awful day
And after having a night like I just described,
Cara finally called me back
And told me that 10:30 is never too late.

4 glasses of wine
Lots of good conversation
Crashing in her bed
Waking up and hurrying off to class with her the next morning

FRIDAY:
After rehearsal,
I met Kristina at Buffalo Wild Wings and had a fantastic dinner
Afterwards,
David came over and spent the night

2 glasses of wine
2 many episodes of the OC
2 hours of sleep

SATURDAY:
As soon as David left, Andrea called and said it was time for OC night

4 episodes of The OC
1 episode of Sunny
1/2 bottle of sangria
1 pan of pesto bruchetta

All of it adds up to
A whole lot of love
And a whole lot of friends.

I just need to keep reminding myself that
I'm never alone.


(and I might have an alcohol problem...)

It was just one of those things
Just one of those crazy flings
One of those bells that now and then rings
It was one of those things

It was just one of those nights
Just one of those fabulous flights
A trip to the moon on gossamer wings
It was one of those things

If we'd thought a bit about the end of it
When we started jumpin' town
We'd have been aware that our love affair
Was too hot not to cool down

So good-bye, dear, good-bye and amen
Here's hopin' we'll meet now and then
It was great fun
But it was just one of those things

The state of the economy is ruining my life:

I found out today that the on-campus location of Park Ave CDs is closing.
Big deal...the main location is still open and I only buy a CD there every once in a while.

But I got SO. SAD. when I found out.
I feel like one of my friends just died or something.

I know that sounds like I'm blowing it out of proportion,
But get this:

I first got into music when I first got to college, and that store helped fuel my new passion.
I bought concert tickets there.
I bought giant posters there.
I bought used CDs there.
I bought AP magazines there (before I got smart and subscribed).

When Amanda and I were friends, we'd meet up there every MWF in between classes.

I met Army of Me there.
I saw a disappointing performance by John Ralston there.

I met LIGHTS RESOLVE. and SHANGHAI THRILLS. there.

I promote shows there.
I pre-order new things that I'm excited about there.

I have the number in my phone.
I know everyone who works there.

And now it's closing.

When I found out, my first words to the guy behind the desk were
"What am I gonna do between classes now??"

I'm just so sad that it's closing :-(

Oh and my favorite teacher isn't coming back next year either.
And theatre history will be taught by grad students.

Awesome.

So last night I went to go see Rocco DeLuca play an acoustic set at Park Ave CDs.

BACKGROUND NOTE:
I've known for a while that he was playing the Social last night. And I had every intention of going...he sings "Colorful" which is one of my most favorite songs of all time. The lyrics resonate with me so much because I feel like he's describing me...and I want so badly for someone to think those things about me as well:

But then I realized that he's promoting his new album...which I took a listen to and didn't dig nearly as much as his old stuff.  So I decided to save my money and forgo this one.  BUT THEN!  I got an e-mail from Park Ave on Tuesday morning saying that he was doing a surprise acoustic set.  So why not?  See him for free, up close and personal.

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So I went and it was AWESOME.  And he was fantastic and brilliant and it was a really great set. 

I really really really really really wanted him to play Colorful, but it wasn't looking like it was going to happen.  I wanted to shout it out so badly, but I got nervous.  And I figured he probably wouldn't have been able to because he's a busy guy and probably had to run to the gig downtown.  My friend was willing to shout it out for me...but I told him no.  I didn't want to cause any problems or anything.

So I bought the CD and got him to sign it.  He was really nice, so I told him all about Colorful and how it's one of my top 10 favorite songs ever....

ROCCO: Oh you should have told me!  I would have played it tonight!
SHELBY: Seriously??  Oh man!......I mean is it over?  Can you still get back up there?
ROCCO: Yea I'm finished here....

.....but I'll tell you what.
If you come to The Social tonight, I'll play it just for you.
SHELBY: Seriously?
ROCCO: Yea!
SHELBY: Nahh......it was probably already on the set list
ROCCO: Actually it's not.  But if you come and you shout it out, I'll play it.
SHELBY: Wow!  Well I might stop in then!
ROCCO: Yea you should!

So me and my friend were thinking about going...because that is SO COOL.  But ultimately...why spend the money on a full concert when you're just going for one act that you'd already seen that night?  You know?  So we decided to catch him next time.  I didn't really care last night.

But now I'm sitting here thinking about HOW COOL that is.  Like...to have a song that you listen to all the time.  That you breathe and cry to and love.  And to tell the person who wrote it how much it means to you.  And to have them not only know what it means to you....but to offer TO PLAY IT JUST FOR YOU.

Like when I realized the magnitude of that (12 hours later mind you) I just started crying.  That is so. amazing.  And I will never forget Rocco DeLuca and the kindness that he showed me last night.  I'm glad I bought the new CD for him to sign.  I may not like it quite as much as the old stuff...but I'm really glad I got to support him.  Because his support for me was absolutely wonderful :-)

And that's my super amazing awesome story of the week.  Not a whole lot of those lately...but Parachute's coming in 13 days, so I'm sure I'll have more to talk about soon!
 

It's like...
I'm sick of boys.
But I'm sick of being alone.

So I just feel....sick.

Blech.

And like...at this point normally I would cry and freak out
But I can't

No tears are coming out
And then I feel dumb for crying in the first place.

I just have this ginormous to do list in my head
And PHYSICALLY no time to do it in

And it sucks
A lot

11 Days Til Freedom...

I feel like I'm dying

I'm so done with him making me feel this way.

...but whenever we're together,
I forget all the waiting.

I forget all the bullshit.

Everything melts and it's just me and him.

Then he leaves,
And I remember why I can't stand him.

I posted that entry
And then moped
And ate chocolate
And cried
A lot

And my mom came in to say goodnight
And I cried all over her

And we came to some conclusions.
Conclusions that I knew already...but it was nice to say them out loud.

And I could sit here and talk about my deep rooted self esteem issues
And how I clearly need professional help

But instead,
I'm going to talk about my New Year's Resolution

Because I've published my resolutions for the past two years
And they always seem to work
At least for a little while.

I need to put an emphasis on ME TIME
in the new year
I need to realize that hanging out with my friends is not everything.
It's fun
But it's not everything
I need to be at peace with staying in
And being by myself
And not get depressed every time it happens

What will enforce this?
Bringing back gym time.

Now this is not in an attempt to lose weight like most new year's resolutions
Last year it was even to make myself look pretty
(for me, not for men)
And what it did for me last year was immeasurable.

I made time every. single. day. for the gym.
I remember hopping out of Ben's car right in front of the gym at 10:40pm so that I could squeeze in an hour before it closed.
I ALWAYS made time for the gym.

And I lost weight.
And I felt good.
And most importantly,
I spent an hour by myself every single day with my phone in a completely different building.

That's right
I don't bring my phone to the gym with me
The gym is a sacred place
Just me and my iPod
And endorphines

I love it.

And now it's harder to find gym time.
I work early.
I have class in the day time.
I have rehearsal at night.
And I have to squeeze in homework whenever I can.

But I feel like I can make time.
I feel like if I spend less time knocking around with Nicki and Nikki after classes,
That there will be time for the gym
And if I make it a priority
Like it should be
Then maybe I'll feel better about everything
Just because I had an hour to myself
Where I was doing something that was good for myself.

I could talk about this forever.
But you get the point.

I've now officially published my New Year's Resolution.
Here's to making it work!

It's Saturday, December 13th, 2008.
2:10 AM

And I just finished my Design Basics Portfolio.

Meaning I'm done with Design Basics.

Meaning...

I'm
done
with
FALL 2008.

And I'm crying like a bitch right now.

Like...I honestly can't believe I survived it.

This has been the longest
toughest
most intense
crazy
15 weeks of my ENTIRE life.

And I made it out alive!
And I'm crying so hard right now...like you wouldn't even believe it.

This is probably the best I've ever felt
...in a weird kind of way...

You know...since I'm delirious from cutting cardstock for 12 hours...

BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER
CUZ I'M DONE
AND I'M GOING HOME TOMORROW

AND I NEVER HAVE TO TAKE DESIGN BASICS
OR CAD
OR FINITE MATH

EVER.
AGAIN.

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P.S. My grades were stellar this semester.  How did that happen?

I think the next CD I'm going to buy off of iTunes is

The Last Goodnight: Poison Kiss

Why?!
They're SO adult alternative it's not even funny
Mainstream mainstream mainstream

But their songs are soooooooo sweet!!

Don't stop!
Don't change!
Stay beautiful!

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

So I have this loooooooooooooooooooong list of things to do.

And one of them is this presentation due on Tuesday
On the artistic movement: DADA

And I was putting it off
And putting it off

Then I got some books

Then I put it off
and put it off

And I tried to read

Then I got sad

Then I tried to read

but got on facebook instead

Then I tried to read

But got distracted

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FINALLY tonight I read for like...an hour.
And the presentation basically fell into my lap.

I mean, the handout and everything is going to take some thinking.
But all of this information just clicked together into this beautiful presentation
With music
And damn good quotes

And I'm so excited about it!!
I almost wish I'd started on it sooner
Because it's cool getting passionate about things.

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And I'm listening to Razia right now
I mean...it's fine

http://raziasshadow.com/

Razia's Shadow

This.."musical" composed by this new Fueled By Ramen band--Forgive Durden.

I
AM
OBSESSED

Like...wake up in the morning humming it
Tapping the beats in class
Constantly stuck in my head
Constantly picturing it
Always on my iPod
New profile song
Researching it instead of doing my homework

OBSESSED.

It's so WEIRD.
But the music is so intriguing
To have that blend of hipster emo with computer made orchestrations

It sounds like it would be terribly tacky
But it's gorgeous!

Ugh when I listen to it,
I feel like a weird misunderstood high schooler

I tried introducing it to some people...but they're all like "whaa??  This is insane!"

BUT I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT.

Someone please go to the site and tell me that I'm not crazy.

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"An idea is only relevant if it's being thought upon.
So remember,
Never surrender
because the unrelenting constancy of love and hope will rescue and restore you from any scope."

Hello Lj!  It's been awhile.  And I need to vent.  Moody things.  So if you're not in the mood to read me whining, skip on up to the next entry on you Flist.

So I got stood up last night. 
I invited a boy over...
A boy WHO LIKES ME
And who I didn't like

Until he looked me in the eyes and told me that I was
funny
and cool
and gorgeous

...and just pretty to look at.

That's when he won me over I guess.
I mean idk how I feel about him.

But if I'm bothered by the fact that he didn't show last night,
I must feel something, right?

But just like Johnny...and that crazy Valentine's day pity fest...
This one tiny thing that this stupid boy did
Just sent me into this depressing spiral.

Where the only thought that can come into my head
Is how ugly I am.

I haven't had a boyfriend since I can remember basically.
And it just makes me feel so...ugly.
No matter how many people tell me otherwise.

So I cry
and cry
and cry
and make some food
then feel fat
then cry some more

Then I try to call someone.
BUT ALWAYS
When I'm feeling like this
ALWAYS
my friends don't answer

And then I feel trapped because I can't talk to anyone.
And then I feel ugly and stupid and friendless.
And I just sit and think of all the possible reasons why I don't have any friends.

Even though I know I have friends.
It's just not very apparent right now.

Then I start to get nostalgic.

I miss Amanda.
I miss Shanghai Thrills.
I miss talking to Matt Cohen on AIM every single day.
I miss Parachute Musical.
I miss Amy.
I miss Allana.
I miss Veronica.
I hate that I don't see Ben anymore.

I just hate it.
I miss everyone so much.

I miss going to concerts!!
I haven't been to a concert since JULY.
And the more and more overwhelming theatre gets.
The more I just want to shut it all out and go to a fucking concert.
And listen to music.
And dance
And make friends
And meet bands
And make friends with them.

I'm just so frustrated.
And right now...I'm really really sad on top of it.
And tired.

It'll probably only last til Monday.
Maybe it'll stop sooner if something crazy happens.

But for right now...
I can't stop crying.

Rufus is going to be on Miami on November 8th.

I'm just going to go ahead and assume that I can't go.  You know...seeing as rehearsals for all the fucking shows I chose to do are already conflicting with Jason Mraz, Jack's Mannequin, Panic at the Disco, AND Cobra Starship/Forever The Sickest Kids.

I guess it just stinks that I was already upset when I decided to click on Rufus's profile and came across this little bit of information.

Whatthefuckever

My boss, Destini, is adorable.

I've worked every single Friday night since the summer started.
Often times, I work until 3 AM on Friday nights.
But it's ok...because usually I don't work at Broadway on Wednesdays and Thursdays
And some weeks, I don't work at Kohl's either,
And I have Wednesday and Thursday as like...a weekend.

But this week she decided to give me Friday off too.
And Kohl's didn't schedule me.

Her words:
"I thought you deserved a Friday night off!  You're 18...go have fun :-)"

My thoughts:
I wish I was at work right now.

In schedule form.  Duh.  Have you ever read my Lj before?

7:45 AM
Begrudgingly woke up after a mere 6 hours of sleep.  Fine for any other night except for the night before WARPED TOUR!  But whatever...I had to get ready because Amanda was picking me up at 9:00 (9:15 in Amanda time).

8:00 AM
Called Amanda and make sure she's awake.  Make the plan to call her close to 9 to see what's up.

8:50 AM
Ran around frantically trying to finish getting ready...sewing buttons onto my bathing suit and what not.  Amanda's not answering her phone.  Whatever...I assumed she was finishing getting ready.

9:00 AM
Still finishing getting ready...puttin it all together.  Amanda's still not answering

9:20 AM
All done getting ready...Amanda's still not answering.  I gave up and called the house phone only to find out that her new bf showed up for a surprise visit...making her late to come get me because of a boyfriend for the third. time.
I got mad.  Whatever...I was most concerned about the fact that she still didn't have a ticket.

10:20 AM
She finally showed up.  It's too stupid to stay mad...fucking warped tour!!!!!  So we ran to Publix to get giant bottles of water (because the fucking venue only allowed one bottle per person...so we cheated the system and bought 1 liter bottles).

11:15 AM
Traffic on Colonial was a fucking MESS!  But as frustrating as it was...it was kind of amazing.  All the teenies were already at the venue because their parents drove them early or whatever...so the entire road was stuffed with all the older kids who drove themselves.  Every single car was filled with kids our age...all with messy hair and tight shorts and crazy shades.  Everybody was rolling down their windows and shouting to each other about warped tour.  It was all so cool!  Amanda officially declared it the warped "caravan" haha

The only scary thing was that there were guys walking up and down the street with big signs that said "I NEED TICKETS".  We rolled down the window to ask if they were sold out and the guys said yes.  This SUCKED because I didn't know what I'd do without Amanda...so I called all my friends and she called hers...and we got mixed "yea they're still selling tickets" and "no they're sold out".  We had no idea what to do about it.

11:30 AM
Gave up on traffic and decided to park at a thrift store about half a mile down the road.  As soon as we left the parking lot, we ran into a guy selling 4 tickets.  He seemed legit, so Amanda bought it and our fears were alleviated.  However, when we went back to the car to grab her water bottle that she forgot, we found out that we couldn't park there or we'd get towed.  So it was back into traffic we went.

11:50 AM
FINALLY GET THERE!  Her ticket worked.  I got mine at will call easy as pie.  And we were in!!!!
And it all started before we even got to the entrance...

A band called Uh Oh Explosion cornered us and told us that Orlando Warped was gay and that all the people were mean and asked us to listen to their record.  It sounded pretty good...and they were being super nice to us.  It was before Amanda had gotten her ticket ripped, so she was still pretty worried about it being fake and her being ripped off for $40...and he said that if we bought their CD for $5 and her ticket turned out to be fake, he would refund the money AND give us $10 for our troubles.  How nice is that?!?!  And the music was decent, so we helped them out.  Very nice people.

12:00 PM-1:00 PM
Exploring...Sweating...Being overwhelmed by vendors.  Getting SO MUCH FREE STUFF!!!!!!  omg warped tour = FREE STUFF!  There was so. much. free. stuff.  I cannot even express to you with words how much free stuff I got.  We got really hot really fast though and sought out shade over by the Hurley stage while we waited for our first act of the day!!

1:00 PM--The Pink Spiders--Hurley Stage
I love the idea of the pink spiders.  Sometimes I can't understand him and sometimes one song sounds exactly like another one.  But the whole pink and black thing is so cool.  And the whole updated 50's pop vibe that they have is just so stimulating to me.  And the lead singer's pretty cute.  idk...I'll never really understand what I like about The Pink Spiders...but it was an enjoyable set.  We ended up leaving a tad early to catch the last half of....

1:15  PM--The Academy Is...--Main Stage Left
William Beckett can WORK. IT.  I never got into TAI when they were popular back in 11th grade...but I really want to get my hands on the first album (like physically...I like the artwork too much to download it).  So the set wasn't as awesome for me as it was for other people because I don't know their stuff.  It was definitely enjoyable to me as a show though.  They put on a really good show.  And Travis from We The Kings joined them at the end.  That was funny...haha

So we didn't know what to do after that...so I convinced Amanda to wander over to

1:45 PM--Beat Union--Hurley.Com Stage
We saw the last two songs.  Pretty cool.  Very British.

It was across from the Jack's Mannequin merch...so we decided to stop and get our shirts then.  I tipped the merch guy because his box said "I NEED A MARGARITA" and I thought it was hilarious.  And a margarita sounded really good then.

We also passed the Alternative Press booth (best magazine EVER!)  and paid $2 to be squirted for a good 15 seconds with ice cold water.  It was the best $2 I ever spent.  After that excitement, we headed BACK to the main stages for

2:45 PM--Jack's Mannequin--Main Stage Right
OMG SO GOOD.  Jack's Mannequin was our number one priority of the day and it was SO WORTH IT.  He's such a great performer (no matter how intoxicated him and his fellow band members were...seriously guys?  Swigging MAKER'S ON STAGE?!)  And the set list was excellent.

Bruised
La La Lie
The Mixed Tape
new song
Dark Blue
Made For Each Other

so yea...excellent excellent stuff.  If it had been a bit longer...it would have been worth the $40 just seeing him.

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So Amanda and I had nothing planned until the Jack's Mannequin signing at 4:00...so we took an hour break from each other.  She went to go nap and I went exploring.  On my journey I found NATALIE and embraced her and chatted for a bit.  Talked about how devastated I was that Cobra Starship and Forever The Sickest Kids were playing at the same time...but how they made up for it by announcing that they're TOURING TOGETHER IN THE FALL.  Then I passed an indie stage and saw a decent band play a song...I forgot the name of it but I have a flyer around here for them somewhere. 

Then I went up and down the aisles of vendors to find MERCH.  Because I had nearly $60 burning a whole in my pocket.  On my journey to find the Forever The Sickest Kids booth...I found out that they were having a signing 4:00 too (UGH whatever...signings are awkward anyway...). 

Then I came across the tacky little booth for this guy named Kevin Elliot.  The merch guy stopped me with a water gun (YES!) and asked me to listen to this guy's stuff.  I was skeptical because everybody had been cornering me with this screamo hXc shit...but I listened and it was pretty decent.  So I ended up striking up a conversation with this guy about merch and warped tour and being involved...and then ended up staying in his tent for like 20 minutes behind his table with him just talking about my degree and how I want to get into music and what he's been doing and blah blah blah...it was cool.  He told me to come back later if I could.  And this connection would pay off GREATLY later.

Well I after I spent $5 on that CD...I found the FTSK booth and bought one of their shirts and tipped their cute merch guy.  Then I found Pink Spiders booth around the corner and bought their CD (listening to it now...fun stuff!!) for $15.  Then I bought a $3 bottle of water.  Then JUST when I was about to buy some tacky Cobra Starship sunglasses...I realized that I still needed food money.  Good thing because I would NOT have had enough money for those $5 french fries!!

1 hour later and I only had $2 to my name.

4:00 PM
Meet Amanda back at Jack's Mannequin's merch booth for the signing.  Luckily we ran into some friends from high school that had sweet spots at the front of the line.  So we cut and got to meet him sooner.  He was super nice and said that even though he's not hitting FL on the next tour...he's definitely coming back soon.  He also signed the tacky bag I bought at Wal-Mart last night...making it a little less tacky :-)

4:30 PM
The line for Cobra Starship's signing was so massive that they weren't accepting more people.  FTSK was gone from their signing.  Amanda and I were hot as balls and she was getting cranky.  Luckily we found out that they disconnected the hose from the disease covered slip and slide...so we stood under that a couple of times and cooled off a little bit.  We The Kings was playing at the stage next to it at the time...so we jammed.  I've seen them 3 times...so I wasn't heartbroken about not being over there in the pit for it.

4:50 PM
Amanda wanted to sit in the shade...but the big covered concrete area was PACKED.  So I remembered that I had a friend with some shade and took her over to where Denny (the merch guy from earlier) was sitting.  We just chilled there with him for a while...eventually meeting the actual singer.  We apologized for taking up his tent with our beach towel, but he said it was ok because beautiful girls usually draw people over :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))  haha

While we were there, we were tipped off that Farewell was giving away water for tips...so we each used my last 2 dollars to fill up our one liter water bottles with ice cold water.  My opinions of Farewell are WAY HIGHER now than when I saw them open for fucking Powerspace. hahaha

I also saw like 20 seconds of The Audition's set when I heard them playing a stage nearby...but the lead singer's stage presence cracked me up just as hard as it did in October...so I left pretty quickly.

5:45 PM--The Horrorpops--Hurley.Com Stage
We finally left Kevin's tent refreshed and ready to go.  We went and laid out Amanda's beach towel and watched The Horrorpops.  Pretty cool band...the lead singer had the most KICK ASS stand up bass in life.  Like seriously?  I've never seen a cooler looking instrument EVER.  So that was a groovy band to pass the time with before the big night started.

6:55 PM--Cobra Starship--Main Stage Right
As much as I LOVE Cobra Starship....(which is a lot...they don't call me Shelby Cobra for nothing...)  I decided to only watch the first two songs of their set.  FTSK had been calling my name ever since they left Florida back in April.  So I got to see "The City Is At War" and "Send My Love To The Dancefloor" before I hightailed it over to their stage.  It sucked to leave...especially since I knew that Travis and William Beckett were going to come out for Bring It! later...but I left anyway.  And I don't regret it.

7:05 PM--Forever The Sickest Kids--Ernie Ball Stage
I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM.

They're just all so INTO IT and have SO MUCH FUN when they're up there.  And their songs are catchy as hell.  And it was just so much fun.  Unfortunately I was not on Caleb the Cute Ginger's side of the stage...but that's fine.  Silly Austin was right in front of me and cracking me up the entire time.  Unfortunately I didn't any fun guitar picks or drumsticks or whatever...but that's what Oct/Nov is for :-)

Whoa Oh!
Hey Brittany
My Worst Nightmare
Believe Me, I'm Lying
She's a Lady

7:30 PM
I went over to the merch table to see them...but the only one there was the lead singer (boring) and he was mobbed by the teenies.  I gave up and decided to head over to Say Anything for a sweet spot.  And just when I made the decision and turned to tell Amanda about it, Caleb walked up and crossed RIGHT BEHIND HER...like practically AGAINST HER.  I followed him with my dreamy, glazed over eyes...but before I knew it, him and Austin were swallowed up by the crowd of teenies.  Whatever...I have a pic with him from last time.  And I got to see him up close at least.

7:55 PM--Say Anything--Main Stage Right
Exactly the same as the first two times I saw them.  Hundreds of awesome people shoving each other and screaming every single word back at the insane guy on stage and his five cute band mates.  I love Say Anything shows...I think because I'm a closet mosher who's afraid of actual moshing.  Say Anything is about as hardcore as I get, and I love every minute of it.  I love every crowd surfer that kicks me in the head.  I love every drunk guy that screams in my ear.  I love shoving back.  And I love that all three times that I've seen them, I've started at a decent spot in the middle, and ended up against the barricades.  Every. Time.  Screaming the lyrics of "Wow I Can Get Sexual Too" right at Max Bemis!  I know he saw me one time!  He's so crazy.  I love it.  I love Say Anything shows.  Always.

Alive With The Glory of Love
Skinny, Mean Man
Every Man Has a Molly
Wow I Can Get Sexual Too
Woe
Shiksa
Belt (with Gabe from Cobra Starship, William Beckett, The Color Fred, and A TON of other people)

8:30 PM
So needless to say...Say Anything took it out of me.  All the booths were getting torn down...and Gym Class Heroes was just not as appealing as getting in the car and taking off our shoes.  So we peaced out....of course getting stopped by a local band with and iPod and a boombox on the way. 

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All in all, it was fantastic.  Like every big, eventful show that I go to, I walked out not only with a sense of "money well spent" (which is the best feeling!) but with a sense of belonging.  I know that everyone who's actually on warped tour hates it...and if I were actually on it, I'd probably hate it too.  But being on warped tour just sounds like so much more fun than what I'm doing right now.  Hanging out with all those dudes every day?  And I'm not just talking about Gabe Sapporta and Max Bemis...I'm talking about guys like Denny and the cute merch guy for FTSK.  That would be so fantastic.  idk...I'm going on tour one day.  It might not be WARPED...but it'll be something.  And it'll be awesome.

I just googled myself...first and last name in quotes of course

And out of 197 results, 9 of them were actually about me.
Weird huh?

I wasn't expecting that many!! 
One of them directly linked to my facebook of course.

Then there was a PDF file from Most Happy Fella of when Kyla excused me from firearm training to see Boys Like Girls!  haha

Good times.

OK I'm venting.

I just wish that people realized how cool this whole Parachute Musical thing is.

They are so talented.
I can legitimately say that they are my favorite band in the whole world.
Legitimately

And I said that before I met them.

And their new CD is so absolutely fantastic....I can't even use words to describe it.
If you asked me to describe Everything Is Working Out Fine In Some Town
The only word I could probably come up with is sublime.
And I've only heard 5 of the 10 tracks on it!

And I can't describe to you how cool it is that I KNOW THEM
And they KNOW ME
And PUT ME ON THEIR GUEST LISTS!

Even though their some indie band from Nashville...
I think it was so utterly cool that I get on the guest list for every show that my favorite band does.

How cool is that?
Can you imagine that?

Seriously.
The title track.
It's funny because the lead singer/writer/piano player (Josh)
One of his favorite artists is Rufus Wainwright...

And it's like he's channeling Rufus.

You know how all of his opening tracks are epic?
And like totally moving?
(more so with the last 3...but Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk is absolutely charming :-P)

I felt the exact same way listening to the title track on this album
As I did the first time I heard Agnus Dei

And that's saying something.

So there.
I talk about them ALL the time
People are getting totally sick of me
I recorded and set them as all of my ringtones and alarms
I can't get enough

And it's kind of weird...you know...knowing them and all...
But WHATEVER

If I can't say it in my Lj,
Then where else is there?